I don’t know how to write about humility, as my immediate response tells me to, “Get up, walk away, to speak would be to boast.” Finding, and remaining in a place of humility has been my focus over the last month or so. Originally it stemmed from the verse, 2nd Chronicles 7:13-14 that says, 13 “When I shut up the heavens so that there is no rain, or command locusts to devour the land or send a plague among my people, 14 if my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.”
This seemed like a really relevant verse, and I took it pretty literally. After all, Australia burned last year, a literal locust cloud devoured (and may still be devouring) the west coast of Africa, and we are all well aware of our current state of pandemic. The answer seemed pretty clear to me, humble yourself Shonah, then God will hear your fears and anxieties, He will come and fix this.
How am I still living out the broken thinking of my childhood? God is not a works-rewards God. He is God. He does not need our works to prove to Him that we need saving, He already knows we need saving. I started thinking about what it really meant for me to remain humble. I started thinking about all the times I tried to fix it myself, control the situation, impress myself and others; all of this was about putting me first. It was about making the message about me. The message, since the dawn of time, has never been about us. From the beginning it was about God. He was all there was before there was all of this, He created this. Humility made me realize how small I was, and it gave me comfort. Humility made me realize I was not in charge, God was, and it gave me peace. Humility made me realize I have no place to ask, but He is still listening. Humility changed the way I prayed about the world situation from, “Oh God, please help us, it’s so hopeless and I’m scared.” to, “Jesus we are so lost, and broken, and scared. Be our peace, come be our hope. We are lost without you, we are so lost. We need you.”
God’s heart is so big, He will not leave us in this state of chaos, if we only realize that we are in a state of chaos to begin with. Humility takes the focus off you and allows you to see you from the outside in. We need to stop believing we have it all together. We don’t. If the year 2020 has taught us anything, it is that we are falling apart; on so many levels I’m overwhelmed by it. Jesus, help us, we are so lost.
I said to Rhett the other night that the world always seemed to be in chaos, and every generation before us probably laid claim to being the Revelation Generation, but I said it feels different right now. When you look over history, it seemed like there was a ‘method to the madness’, and now it just all seems like madness. I can’t keep it straight in my head. Everywhere you look, we are falling apart. We need to humble ourselves. We need to recognize our need for God, our need for Him to come and literally save us from ourselves. Look at what we are doing, look around. We need saving from our literal selves right now. Humble yourselves, God will hear your prayers and heal the land, as it were, He will come and save you from yourself. Save you from your anxiety, your depression, your hopelessness, your hate, your judgement, your vengeance. How can we be saved when we don’t realize we need it. Humble yourselves.